save yourself
cus the only thing that matters's that you get away
from the pain, and the thought, of losing your mind
don't blame yourself
it was everyone around that made you act this way
there's a stage, and your chance to watch it go down

don't fake yourself
into ever, ever thinking about yesterday
that was then, this is now
don't call it undone

don't take what you've been delt
you can exit out the back and make your getaway
before anyone can see, the damage you've done

this time is the last time
to be here, here now
this time is the last time
somehow make it through

state your case
you've got everyone's attention
what can you say?
thanks, or forget what you've been given
take your place
do you think that you deserve the best of everything?
we don't get, why your here
can you figure it out?

this time is the last time
to be here, here now
this time is the last time
you've got to get away

oh i get lost in the thought of losing you
you've got to get away
i know it's a dream, but it must be true

wave now goodbye
it's the lesson that you've been given
you can always move on to better things

so this time is the last time
to be here, be here now
this time is the last time
to somehow
this time is the last time
to be here, be here now
this time is the last time
to some how make it through
- posted by lindsay @ 6:18 PM

 
and so she wakes up in time to break down
she left a note up on the dresser and she's right on time you don't know anything right or wrong
i say i know and she says so
i want to panic but i've had it so i go
(you don't owe anything to anyone)

but don't take your life becuase it's all you've got you'd be better off just up and leaving if you don't think they will stop

and when you wake up, everything is going to be fine i guarantee that you wake in a better place in a better time so you're tired of living and you feel that you might give in well don't it's not your time

flipping through the paper today looking for a specific page don't want to find her full name followed by dates because when i left her alone she made a sound, like a moan "you're known by everyone for everything you've done" fuck buying flowers for graves i'd rather buy you a one way non-stop to anywhere, find anyone do anything, forget and start again, love she said she won't go and that's that it hurts too much to stand by you've got to stop and draw a line and everyone here has to choose a side tonight the moment of truth is haunting you don't forget your family regardless of what you choose to do. you cant decide and they're all screaming "why won't you?" i'll start the engine but i can't take this ride for you i'll draw the bath and i'll load your gun but i hope so hard that you bathe and hunt.

annie's tired of forgetting about today and always planning for tomorrow annie says "the saddest day i came across was when i learned that life goes on without me" annie says "if everyone has someone else, then i ain't got nobody's love to save me" annie says "i think i'll pass away tonight, because it seems i'll never get it right if it's just me"

and when you wake up everything's going to be fine
i guarantee that you'll wake in a better place in a better time.
so you're tired of living and you feel like you might give in, well don't. it's not your time.

annie says she wouldn't mind if they never find a cure for all her problems. annie says as long as she has someone near to make it clear she does not need to solve them "oh this loneliness is killing me it's filling me with anger and resentment i'm turning into someone that i never thought i'd have to be again"

and even if it was i wouldn't let you go you could run run run run but i will follow close someday you will say "that's it, that's all" but i'll be waiting there with open arms to break your fall i know that you think that you are on your own but just know that i am here and i'll lead you home if you let me she said forget me but i can't
- posted by lindsay @ 3:52 PM

 
I'd be a self - made millionaire and you'd still be gone
So hand me down my best dress shoes and my best dress shirt
Cause I'm going out in style to cover the hurt
And all I wanna do all day is spend it in bed
But that's bad for the body and even worse for my head
So I'll try and find a place where no one will ask me a thing
It'll help to forget and help me to sing

Cause now I'm drunk again
The means to my end
And I'm scared of myself
Cause now it's the same the faces and names
And I'm scared of myself again

Have you ever wanted to wake up from your dreaming
Scared you so bad you couldn't control your heart or your breathing
Well walk out the door with me on the floor
You don't care how I'm feeling
I guess a weak and tired and frightened man is no longer appealing

Some people have a gift of reaching right into your soul

And finding the whole and making it bigger
Baby sometimes I think I catch ya crackin' cynical smiles

And in a short while you'll be my heart's grave digger
Well there's not much I can do
Cause I'm at the mercy of you
So baby I guess we're through

Cause now I'm drunk again
The means to my end
And I'm scared of myself
Cause now it's the same the faces and names
And I'm scared of myself again
Cause now it's all the same the faces and the names
So go walk out the door you don't believe me no more
And I'm scared of myself again

If I had a dollar bill for every time I been wrong
I'd be a self made millionaire and I wouldn't be singing
- posted by lindsay @ 6:06 PM

 
Big Fuckin' Star
I sit here and I think of you
It's so easy, it's so easey to do
I don't even have to try
I don't even want to try
Why should I waste my precious time?
I can't make you love me...but I know you will
I'm such an asshole, how could you resist?
I never meant to let it go to my head
I never thought it would come to this
It's me...the asshole of your dreams
I can't make you love me...but I know you do
I'm so cool, no one wants to talk to me
and I'm so cool, no one wants to look at me
I'm so fuckin' cool, nobody cares at all!
I'm a Big Fuckin' star oh yea yea yea!
- posted by lindsay @ 8:56 PM

 
i've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock
my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked
and i can't stop staring at the tick tock clock
and even if i could i would never give up
with a vest on my chest and a bullet in my lung
i can't believe i'm dying with my song unsung
so if and when i die won't you bury me alone?
because i'll never get to heaven if i'm singing this song:

if there was something wrong would you be oh so strong?
would you do what it takes to move this hollow life along?
i'd like to think i would, you know i'd like to think i would
but i guarantee that what you see is not reality
and every time i make a point she makes a counterpoint
she said it's easy but in the end you'll have no choice
and you know that's only just the way it goes
(you said it right man, that is just the way it goes)
and the days, and the days they seem like forever
and the days, and the days they seem like forever
but forever isn't ever enough
i'd like to sing a song (please swear you won't be long)
i'll try not to be long but i don't want to get this story wrong
there was a kid who never cared about the little things
don't even bother because i'm tired and i'm sick of it
and every time she makes a point i'll make a counterpoint
she said it's easy but in the end you'll have no choice
and you know that's only just the way it goes
(you said it right man, that is just the way it goes)

i've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock
my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked
and i can't stop staring at the tick tock clock
and even if i could i would never give up
with a vest on my chest and a bullet in my lung
i can't believe i'm dying with my song unsung
so if and when i die won't you bury me alone?
because i'll never get to heaven if i'm singing this song:

oh, you don't know where i've been
oh, you don't know what i've seen

if i did something right
would you give up this fight?
would you say you were wrong and maybe someone else was kind of right
i'd like to think you would
you know i'd like to think you would
but i can't guarantee that what you get is an apology
jump back to the day we met
i never thought that it would end this way
if ever i let you down i want to ask of you
to take it down a notch and we can talk it on through

and the days, and the days they seem like forever
and the days, and the days they seem like forever
but forever isn't ever enough
i'd like to sing a song (please swear you won't be long)
i'll try not to be long but i don't want to get this story wrong
there was a kid who never cared about the little things
don't even bother because i'm tired and i'm sick of it
and every time she makes a point i'll make a counterpoint
she said it's easy but in the end you'll have no choice
and you know that's only just the way it goes
(you said it right man, that is just the way it goes)

i've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock
my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked
and i can't stop staring at the tick tock clock
and even if i could i would never give up
with a vest on my chest and a bullet in my lung
i can't believe i'm dying with my song unsung
so if and when i die won't you bury me alone?
because i'll never get to heaven if i'm singing this song:

oh, you don't know where i've been
oh, you don't know what i've seen

so tell me friend: how's it going to end?
when the shit goes down and there's no one left around to get your back
you'll crack
you'll smile and agree with everything they say
they'll try to tell you that it's all okay
but it's not and you're shot and you're bleeding pretty bad
and you can't stop thinking about the things you never had
like a wife and a kid and the things you never did
you're running around
you're living a life that's empty in the end, my friend
oh, you'll take back all you've said
oh, when the regrets fill your head
trust me i've been there before
i would not wish it upon my greatest enemy
what irony
once friends, but i find: you'll have to learn this lesson on your own

so i waited by the phone but that phone never rang
and i sang so loud so i wouldn't hear the bang
when the bang never came and i never got the call: fuck it! thank you! i love you all!
some are going to say that we're doomed to repeat
all our past mistakes
great
but that's not me
and even if it was i would always disagree
because in the end i always get the better of me

i've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock
my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked
and i can't stop staring at the tick tock clock
and even if i could i would never give up
with a vest on my chest and a bullet in my lung
i can't believe i'm dying with my song unsung
so if and when i die won't you bury me alone?
because i'll never get to heaven if i'm singing this song:

oh, you don't know where i've been
oh, you don't know what i've seen
- posted by lindsay @ 8:43 PM